I know that not many persons in the world likes math in school. It’s accurateness and necessity of being always exact is difficult to understand. But contrary to school, in our daily lives we love math: we love to be accurate, exact, correct. We love to find solutions to every problem. We love to know that we have control over the results of our doings. We love to solve our little equations with given and to be found. We love to find exact probabilities to lessen all the risks. Although many times in real world we don’t control much things and we are doomed to trial and failure and new beginnings and uncertainty and etc.
And if it still was not enough, God enters in our equations and destroys all our probabilities, results, feelings of being correct. When we ask if we have to forgive 7 times, his answer is 77. When we ask if we have to go one mile with someone who is forcing us to go, his answer is 2 miles. When we ask if we have to love our friends, his answer is to love our enemies. When we ask how to gain life, his answer is we have to lose it. His ways are truly not our ways. God’s math is out of our world. Our God is out of our control. In today’s Gospel he shows it once more when he points out that his goodness is without measure and that HE DOES WHATEVER HE WANTS WITH WHAT IS HIS. Whatever we try to figure out about his logic, is not logical because it’s out of any logic. We function in 3 dimensional world, meanwhile God knows only 1 dimension: dimension of LOVE. This dimension not always enters in our equations. Forgiveness still surprises us as an act of supreme mercy more than a normal kind of behaviour among Christians. Generosity is taken as an act of special kindness more than a natural consequence of having anything to share. God’s logic is out of our understanding. Today’s readings encourage us to take this path as a doing deign of Christians.
Aleksandra Nawrocka CMT